Aw susie thanks for sending me this. This is very true. :)
Aguas Calientes where I’ll be spending the night in order to go to Machu Picchu tomorrow morning. I did this weekend trip alone and through this experience I realized a few things:
Traveling alone is not for me. It is stressful and anxiety-inducing. I had to separate from my Sacred Valley tour group and time my visit at Ollantaytambo correctly so that I wouldn’t miss my train. I also had to get to the train station by myself. These things made me nervous. I wanted to stay at the ruins for as long as possible but also get to the train station on time. (Wait random sidenote. I’m listening to Spotify right now and the ad is in Spanish. Hahahahhaha wow wasn’t expecting that. Location-based ads. Aiiight.) I realized that if I missed my train the problem was solely mine to solve, the burden solely mine to bear. That is a lonely lonely and terrifying realization. I’m too worried about how I’ll get from a to b, how I’ll manage x, etc. to really enjoy myself when traveling alone. Plus I’m alone and all I see around me are couples, families, and friends traveling together in their safe, secure, happy little bubbles. It makes me wish I had my bubble too.
The little things mean a lot to me. They impact me in deep and profound ways. And one small event can cause me to go into a trancelike reverie or lift my spirits for hours and hours to come. The other day r asked me what the funnest part of my trip has been so far. I told her that there was a woman on the street feeding a tiny kitten and I asked her if I could pet it. She said yes and was so kind. I loved making this connection with her, this warmhearted local cuscan lady. I also told her that I took the bus home with one of the teachers that day. We talked the whole way and it warmed my heart. And that I loved working with the kids because each day I get to see them perform small acts of kindness which always take me by surprise. And that I really enjoyed interacting with the travel agent that day because things weren’t running smoothly but it was funny. R said “LOLOL I like how you enjoy the simple things.” That was the first time someone explicitly said that to me and I realized that I really do enjoy the simple things. It’s the simple things that move me and touch my heart in deep and complex ways.
Ok my hostel doesn’t have wifi and this cafe is closing in 8 minutes so I have to go. The end I hope this entry isn’t complete shit
The Painted Veil
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